hit me with your best shot .

Monday, July 28, 2008,2:34 pm

countdown :

8 days tiil 4th august ! :DDD

7 weeks 6 days to promos ! )):

lalala~

im trying to make it seem as positive as possible ,

time has passed so fast !

it seems like only yesterday peifen was telling me "10 weeks to promos !"

im so so so so happy to say that,

i finished study rule last week ! :D

but this week's a whole new one .

and ,

church is taking it super serious !

so we have to BUCK UP and stay consistent !

JIAYOU :D

plus , FOP's this week , so we have less days to complete study rule ):

this weekend was very impactful , both is so called good and bad ways .

in a way , i've gotten a breakthrough in God ,

on friday , it was my last followup ,

and ironically the first time i got so emotional in it .

we were talking about strongholds,

at first i thought it was very cliche and didnt imply to me,

but then it took a deep plunge,

we began to pray ,

and the time where my friend stole came to mind ,

and passive rebellion came to jieru's about me.

and it really spoke to me.

i seriously think this was a little miracle in itself .

we really discussed about it .

and prayed more to seek God.

and i really think God broke the chains in my heart(:

but then , Jieru asked me to consider my commitments in basketball ,

i know its quite hiong and requires alot of commitment ,

but i really love it .

i love my teammates .

love the game.

love our coach ,

i've really grown attached to it .

and all this while ,

i always thought basketball was the one thing that God gave to me .

as an identity and confiding place.

where i could cast all my cares upon and just play freely.

i really love it.

i tried not to think about it .

telling myself i can cope, that i just could.

this weekend , we had two guest speakers.

pastor Ed King and Troy marshall ,

they were amazing !

really prophesized and blessed the church.

but , during worship yesterday,

a verse came to me ,

that , whatever is precious to me , is precious to Him.

and i kept kept kept questioning , should i quit ?

it was overwhelming.

and somehow i knew , that God doesnt want me to give up what i love ,

but to lift it to His hands,

and that it really was eating alot of my time ,

time which He wants me to put into growing and serving.

honestly, i didnt want to believe it.

i'm a doubter lur , seriously.

okay , i didnt want to believe that i had to give this up.

but deeep in my gut , i knew God was right.

i started to cry buckets and buckets .

thinking of it now ,

i dont know what i was crying for more ,

that wasnt sure whether it was truly God's voice ,

or that i knew it was true and devastated at what it was asking .

D5 really supported me .

and im so thankful.

ilovethemtobits.

Jieru shared with me ,

and how i should act in obedience .

i guess deeep down i already knew the answer .

God should be the centre of my heart,

and His love above all earthly things .

i just ,

dont know how i'm going to do it .

All that I am is in You

All that I seek is to follow You

I run to Your side when You call

There is a hope I am longing for

Just to be by Your side

There is hope in my life

There is no other freedom I'll find

So,Take my life

All that I have to give

Take my world

Just inhabit all of it

Take my dreams

Make me assuredly Yours

great song (:

Monday, July 21, 2008,9:50 pm

yay ! i can finally use the com :DD

its a new weeek,

and already i feeel real sluggish ):

BUT !

i cant ! cos i must must MUST MUST uphold study rule this week !

i realised from the total failure of only 5 1/2 hours last week,

that i absolutely CANNOT study lying down . HAHA .

and that once i reach home , i totally collapse ):

JIAYOU yiwen !

JIAYOU study rule recipients ! HAHAHA .

anyway , i went to cut my hair today !

its the first time , FIRST TIME ,

i went by myself .

it felt to weirddddd , seriously .

like nobody to turn around and look at while waiting and cutting , and to consult !

so weird :x

haha , it was cheappp $4.80 . and im quite happy with it .

for now , we'll see tomorrow :x haha ,

anyway , this morning was nuts man ,

had to wake up super early ,

was sort of reading a gp last night .

i read one page and i fell asleeep o.o

i didnt even realise until i woke up !

we had gym training today ,

which actually means 2.4 frmph .

im telling you , when we run in the morning ,

everyone runs SUPERCALIFRAGELISTICALLY fast !

ohmytian , for those 6 eff rounds , they went faster and faster o.o

either that or im getting seriously fat :x

& & we actually got to step into the gym today .

i realised my strength has deteriorated significantly ):

ohman ohman ):

jessie and i were so so so set on ponning after training ,

i mean , it was the perfect day !

plus , i only 1/4 studied for gp , and i didnt do my chinese.

i was so freaking happy & xin li zun bei ,

until she told me her teacher saw her .

@*$@(# !

haha , so had to go to school ):

which turned out to be a bad day ):

HAIS !

lalala , anyways , yeah ! i updated . i'll try to update more , esp links .

and im thinking of putting in a calender ! woots .

ladida ,

8 weeks 6 day countdown to promos ! (: JIAYOU !

Sunday, July 13, 2008,10:23 pm

so much has happened since i last blogged, seriously.

and things have really started to impact my life.

the kukup trip ,

getting kicked out of bmt):

the class chalet,

amara,

follow up,

zone restructure,

BBGT stuff.

and of course mid year examinations which i totally screwed.

now that i think back on it .

its only been a month ,

and i feel a shift in my life.

OH ! before anything else .

im taking off my braces soooooooon !

4th august !

so everyone must mark their calenders ! cos its a special day :DD

hahaha ,

im actually supposed to be chiong-ing pw now ,

and i think its #@*@#$*&@

so i dont think i'll be sleeeping tonight (:

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